Being me

 🦋 HI there, As I was reading the book 'Autobiography of a Yogi' I suddenly recalled how I met my guru and how he transformed my life in ways I could have never imagined. I never knew who he was what he was but the need to have a guru in my life, the thirst to have guru came a long time back specially from the time I was kid, because unlike others I was tad bit different, my outlook towards life had been different when every other kid would be busy buying toys and everything my thoughts were  pertaining the mystery of life, having seen deaths of kids of my own age,  I often used to wonder where did they go and what's going to be their journey, is life so fragile, how long we live can anybody predict. All these questions used to bother me and on the other side I see the beauty too. Couldn't wrap my head around the concept Of God. I was so inquisitive whenever I asked questions everyone asked me to read the scriptures, I could read them but could never understand them, t...

 🦋 Hi there, I sometimes wonder is it just me or does everyone feel the need to have some quiet time with themselves when they are constantly surrounded by people most of the time. As for me I do need that me time to myself to get myself to that exuberant peaceful state of my being. Well today even after that me time I wasn't  feeling that good so I resorted to my second option decluttering and arranging my room. This is kind of the best therapy I have got into for past one year and this has actually helped me a lot (I will discuss about this in detail how decluttering helps in the other blog) So as I was rearranging my room a thought came "Universe wouldn't it be nice to have the entire home to myself just for one night no disturbance from anyone and I could spend it with my diary journaling my thoughts,  read my book and spend time with myself in the balcony and enjoy the beautiful breeze and moonlight." After imagining that and feeling good about it I forgot about...

 🦋 Hi there There is nothing more beautiful and intriguing than knowing ourselves and studying ourselves our own true nature. One moment we think we are this and some other moments we keep on playing a situation again and again figuring out the answer what happened in that particular situation and evaluating ourselves are we actually the person that we think we are.  It's like we are trying to figure ourselves out at each and every moment at each and every step of our life. The more conscious and aware we become we get a bit insightful into our life. And when we become observant then we realize that there are certain patterns repeating in our life; we remain unaware about it until and unless we become observant of the way things are happening or unfolding in our life . The more observant we become about ourselves and the situations happening in our life we be able to decode our own life to certain extent to the point where we can find the exit to the loop of situation in our ...

 🦋 HI there, I know trusting doesn't come to us easily, it's hard it's difficult how can we trust something that we cannot see. Same thing goes with me. I found it extremely hard to trust and let go off the stuffs that were beyond my control. I always thought that we have to work hard and figure out our own way out but over time I realized that I wasted half of my life worrying things that don't even matter today at all. I wished somebody would have told me then, but I know that I wouldn't have listened to them then until and unless life revealed itself to me and the moment I became conscious.  No matter what all things we say to others they won't take the suggestion because everyone's perception of life is different just respect it, if the life has to reveal  to them it will we don't have to do anything other than inspired action that our gut asks us to do out of the blue.  It's true, it's fascinating to observe ourselves during the entire day ...

   🦋 Hi there, Today being my birthday I thought why don't I start writing all over again. Writing has been my passion anything and everything that keeps on running in my head I draw them or write them as it gives me clarity all the time. Like other times I didn't want a lavish birthday I just wanted my immediate friends and family and getting wished by them felt so good. But then a thought came "Anu, is it all that you wanted . You had your life planned out but nothing happened that way", {the creepy nagging voice in the back of my mind, pulling me down and making me feel sad} But then and there Universe intervened playing my favorite song out "I like me better when I am with you" I smiled like I knew what Universe was doing; bringing me back to the present; that's when I looked around me I was surrounded by the people who loved me the most who believed in my shittiest dreams and believed that I could get them and I was unstoppable and nothing more mat...